Different Demons, Same Hell


So, I’ve been feeling a little uninspired lately, thus the blogging hiatus. Been trying to wrap my head around a couple of things, and often feeling overwhelmed by everything. One night, it took me three hours to fall asleep. I tossed and turned, and decided that there mustΒ be a pool of sadness nestled deep within me. And I thought that maybe with every salty tear I cried, the sadness would dry up. But after a while, I realized that it wasn’t a pool to begin with. It was an ocean. And with every wave of sadness that came, it felt like this cycle wouldn’t end.

It’s exhausting, but I’m grateful that I have some really great friends around me whom I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world.

One of them called me up a few nights ago all the way from Chicago, putting his psychology thesis on hold just so he could give me an hour-long encouragement on the importance of pushing forward, taking risks, believing in myself and understanding that everything, no matter how crappy they may seem right now, will be okay.

“Sometimes it may feel as though you’re the only one struggling while others have it so easy. Well, we all have problems of our own. If you were to put all your problems into a bucket, and I put all of mine into another bucket, and we compared them, you’d look into my bucket and cringe and say, ‘Heck no, I can’t handle that!’ and likewise, I’d look into your bucket and say, ‘No way I can do all that.’ Your problems are tailored for you to handle, the way mine are tailored for me. So I want you to know this.

We’re all struggling with our own problems, different demons, same hell. But at the end of the day, know that you’ve got what it takes to overcome these issues that keep you up at night. You’re more than capable. And there’s something else I want you to know. No matter what happens, I know you’re going to be okay. And never, ever for once, believe that you are alone in this. I’m here for you. On top of that, you’ve got a good support system around you. Always remember that.”

Thank you for that Vinod. You always have my back. And one day, I swear you’re going to need to write your own quote book because you’ve got way too many good stuff that’s Tumblr-worthy. I’m serious. People need to read that.

I’m trying to get back onto the blogging bandwagon. This is probably the most personal piece I’ve ever posted out here, and I apologize for that. If you’ve been reading my blog for a while, you’ll know that I don’t really go in-depth about my emotions. I usually keep them at the door when I blog because there are so many other things I’d rather talk about, like my awesome friends and inspirational passages and travel stories. Uplifting stuff, you know? But honestly, writing is therapeutic and if I’m going to start blogging again, I need to just write. Lol.

And to the rest of you, I hope your week’s going well! Sadly there will be days when the sun doesn’t shine, but hey, we’re all in this together. Hang in there, and you’ll be okay. I know you will. God bless!Β πŸ™‚





6 thoughts on “Different Demons, Same Hell

      1. Carissa Gan

        Haven’t been to Birch, but a Cafe Benne just opened up in Malaysia about 2 years ago. It was quite the hype over here lol. When I was in NYC, I really liked Argo Tea, Ground Central in midtown and Think Coffee. Oh I liked Grace Street in Koreatown too! Is it still around?

      2. ysshael

        Oh yes I love Think Coffee, too. Grace Street is still there as far as I know. I haven’t been around koreantown in a while.

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