It’s my birthday in a few hours, and frankly, I have mixed feelings about turning older.
A part of me is excited for the new adventures ahead, while another part of me isn’t ready to say goodbye to my current age and move on to the next. Maybe it’s this cliched fear of growing older, coupled with the slight disappointment of not achieving everything I’d hoped to accomplish.
I don’t think I made the most out of my 26th year. For the most part, I stayed within the walls of my comfort zone and just rolled with the motions. People always say that exciting things happen when you challenge yourself to do new things or meet new people. Well, I avoided that like a plague. I wasn’t really inspired or motivated to try new stuff. Ironically, I used to love challenging myself to do things that coached me out of my comfort zone, but over the last 7 months or so, I stopped chasing that excitement and instead, started avoiding situations that seemed different or relatively difficult. In other words, I went back into the shell that I swore I’d get rid of.
But hey, there is so much more to birthdays than blowing candles off the cake. I think too much focus has been pegged on the fact that we’re growing older and further away from our youth. Too much focus has been placed on what we did or didn’t do. Not much has been said or emphasized about the fact that birthdays are a gift from God, and that every day is a chance to turn your life around and live that passionate, meaningful life you’ve always wanted to live.
Every year is an opportunity to grow deeper in your relationships, advance your skills and talents, and discover new sides of yourself. I’ve come to understand that I am clearly not the same person I was when I was 23. Now I’m plugged into a different season with new challenges, opportunities, and an entirely new mindset.
So yeah, birthdays are beautiful. Growing up is beautiful. Honestly, it can be scary sometimes, but it’s still full of surprises and special encounters that shape the way you see yourself and your life. So right now, as I’m at the brink of my current year and the start of a new one, I feel an overwhelming mix of emotions but I think it’s safe to say that I’m pretty excited to see what the rest of the year will bring.
I want to deepen my relationship with God and my loved ones. I want to take baby steps out of my comfort zone until I’m ready to leap and soar to new heights. I want to experience so much joy in simplicity, that each moment becomes a precious candy to be savored. I want to fall madly in love with creative writing and photography all over again (I’ve had some off days, so it’s time to delve back into the game). I want to toss all my insecurities and fears into the past and focus on enjoying the present.
With all that said, growing into a whole new year is a blessing that I really want to cherish with all of my heart. Happy birthday to me 🙂